Do you ever feel like you have regrets? I know I do.
Regrets about something I said when I wasn’t thinking and
just spoke. Regrets about the way I parent a certain situation. Regrets about
the way a day went and all the things I could have done and didn’t. Etc. Etc.
Etc.
Lately though, I am realizing how I have had an ongoing
regret for at least 8 years, maybe more. I keep saying I am going to make
changes, yet I haven’t. I keep making a
plan for it, but nothing is different.
So I decided to blog about it.
What if I am not the only one with this struggle? What if there are other people going through
this too and need someone to reach out and let them know that they aren’t
alone. I am writing here for the accountability.
Now nothing is a secret.
My biggest regret is that I keep saying I am going to eat
well, lose weight, and make these lifestyle changes and I haven’t done it. I may for a bit, but then throw in the towel
because I want to eat a candy bar or eat some pizza instead of improve my
life.
I have a lot (and I do me a LOT) of self-hate because of
this. I don’t want to be setting a bad
example for my children (and especially my daughter). I want them to know how to eat healthy foods,
work out, and because of them doing those things be able to enjoy life. I want to set that example. And I know since I am the one who buys and
makes our food that the problem is my fault.
So, I am going to lay out my changes. And if you see me doing one of these things,
in a kind way please say something and help me out! I would love to do the same for you if you
want!
--Avoid sweets for the next 90 days, and after that just for
special occasions (next time would be my son’s birthday in October). I am SUPER addicted to chocolate. But I want to cut all sweets for the time
being.
--Over the next few weeks, stop drinking pop. Why not cold turkey?? Well, I just can’t do it. I know I would be going through awful
withdraw if I cut it out without weaning down the amount first.
--Up the amount of water I drink each day.
--Be active in some way each day. A walk with the kids. Setting up cones with
my son and running back and forth between them.
Jumping rope. Doing a work out video. Going to a local track and running
a few laps. But doing something each day
to be active.
--Cut out bread. I
have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and know that I should be avoiding
bread. We already don’t buy it, but if
we are out I will eat it and just need to stop.
--Cut out on eating out.
If I know we are going to be somewhere where I know we will eat out,
plan out what I will eat.
--Start having daily snacks.
And snacks as in carrots, seeds, or some kind of protein.
So, here is what I have been debating saying for a
while. I have thought about starting a
blog now for several weeks and when I thought about it I wanted to be totally
real. I know as a woman we aren’t
supposed to talk about our weight. We
are supposed to keep things hidden and not say the truth. But I am going to put it out there. I am going to list my weight and a current
picture of myself. I will update weekly
with how things are going.
I plan on being honest here in other ways too. I want to take pics of my home in their
current state and then an updated picture after I have cleaned a
room/area.
I will be sharing my Spiritual journey and growth as
well. There is a study I recently came
across and I think given my self-hate will be good for me and I want to share
about it.
The moment of truth has arrived. I am 198 lbs.
I am 5’ 2” and weigh almost 200 lbs.
The journey starts now. I hope
you will support me and maybe even join in.
Let’s do this together!
